Boys are stupid
Do I really need to say any more? This has just about been my worst year of dating ever. No wait, it HAS been my worst year of dating ever. If you are allergic to complaining you may not want to continue reading, though I think maybe only Blake will read this. Oh, that is unless it gets put on Facebook in which case I will have to go and delete it . . .
Anyways, my third and FINAL relationship for the year has failed, this one must have been doomed from the start. Somebody slap me if I try to date again any time soon. The chances of that are slim to nil however due to the facts that:
a) I really don't want to be crushed and humiliated again for a while
b) I have got to loose some weight before any guys will even look at me without disgust (this year has really stressed me out)
c) dating is stupid!
I should have known better, I really should have, I mean who am I kidding right? But I still want to cling a little longer to the idea that he is out there; the man who will see me walking across his path and decide that he has to meet me and then he will ask around until he finds out who I am and will nervously come up to me and try to be cool while he intriduces himself (or gets someone else to) and then we will engage in nervous small talk and I won't be able to get him out of my head for the rest of the day and we will find ways to bump into each other until he has the nerve to ask me on a date which will be the best night of my life so far even if it is fraught with mishaps which will only make him all the more endearing and we will become passionately in love with each other and have eyes for no one else.
Ok, so maybe I've read too many romantic stories, but it could happen, right?
I'm an idiot. That stuff doesn't happen in real life to chubby geeks like me and the rapture is going to happen first anyways . . .
Anyways, my third and FINAL relationship for the year has failed, this one must have been doomed from the start. Somebody slap me if I try to date again any time soon. The chances of that are slim to nil however due to the facts that:
a) I really don't want to be crushed and humiliated again for a while
b) I have got to loose some weight before any guys will even look at me without disgust (this year has really stressed me out)
c) dating is stupid!
I should have known better, I really should have, I mean who am I kidding right? But I still want to cling a little longer to the idea that he is out there; the man who will see me walking across his path and decide that he has to meet me and then he will ask around until he finds out who I am and will nervously come up to me and try to be cool while he intriduces himself (or gets someone else to) and then we will engage in nervous small talk and I won't be able to get him out of my head for the rest of the day and we will find ways to bump into each other until he has the nerve to ask me on a date which will be the best night of my life so far even if it is fraught with mishaps which will only make him all the more endearing and we will become passionately in love with each other and have eyes for no one else.
Ok, so maybe I've read too many romantic stories, but it could happen, right?
I'm an idiot. That stuff doesn't happen in real life to chubby geeks like me and the rapture is going to happen first anyways . . .
posted by Lilouwyn | 1:37 AM
5 Comments:
Yes, we are. All of us. I'm glad you've learned this life lesson. ;-)
I may not slap you upon the next relationship attempt, but I will at least agree with two of your three reasons.
a) Being crushed sucks; it really does. (The past year has been bad for me as well.)
b) You do NOT need to lose weight in order to get guys to look at you. Michelle, you are a beautiful girl. I beg you not to refer to yourself as a "chubby geek." You are clearly not chubby, and I assure you that the last thing on the mind of those who see you is "disgust." You might be a geek though. :-)
c) I could not have said it better, "dating is stupid!" Why can't we just switch to arranged marriages?
As always, I'm praying for you. Good luck on your finals!
aww, please don't get too down on yourself. i agree with blake, you do not need to lose weight. if you want to do it for yourself, cool, but please don't do it for a guy. i know from personal experience you will just end up miserable. you are a wonderful person, and the right man for you is out there. hold on to your romantic ideas, they can definitely come true! i'll be praying for you.
oh, and i'm really excited about the irish fest on sat.! i'm glad you're coming =).
And what's wrong with chubby geeks?
Michelle first you do not need to lose any weight you are so freaking cute....and I agree that dating is stupid, which is why I have serious commitment issues
I wish I were there for you, Michelle. I know the four people above me have your back, but I'd love to talk and catch up and give you a hug...I'll be home shortly: grad conf.
Your complaints are legitimate - a.)when stuff goes wrong...well, it really goes wrong. I don't know the whole story, but I hate that you feel you've been walked upon. b.)Ditto to the above. You do not need to lose weight. You are beautiful, fearfully and wonderfully made. c.) Yes. In so many ways. Which is why I haven't tried it yet. If a guy who's a friend starts paying me compliments I get scared (usually b/c I don't like said guy, anyway, different story).
What you described has happened - it is possible. It's just not right for right now. Now, Jen doesn't mean to start preaching at you right now, but God allowed for you to have each of those relationships. You've probably learned a lot of valuable lessons, though right now they probably don't seem worth the pain they cost. Take what you've learned. Beward now of what to avoid like the plague.
You will get an amazing guy, just wait and see. Yes, waiting is hard, but in the mean time, continue becoming the Godly woman God's turning you into.
My (our) senior year of high school during a woman's conference I could feel God telling me to let go of one thing - my insistence that He let me marry. I had to give it up because He told me to. I did it with many tears at the altar. It wasn't fun. Now, God often gives us back what He asks us to give up for His sake, so I'm still hopeful I'll find a Godly man, but it had to come down off it's place of priority. That's just what God told me to do, I doubt He asks that specific thing of everyone.
Whatever the future holds, be assured it is far better, exceedingly above anything we can ask or think. I love you, girl. Sorry for the long comment. We'll talk soon.
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